Mood Post: Week 1 Rainbow - Red

   So I thought I'd start a weekly trend of a Mood Post. I'll dive into a unique part of my personality each week. Whether it be favorite color, activity, outfit, who knows! It'll be what I'm in the mood to share!

   I decided to start with the Rainbow. Every week I'll do a post full of colorful eye candy!

   This week is the letter R; Red. Red just happens to be my favorite color too!

Shoes are totally my thing! Especially a pair of glittery red pumps like these ones! Not only are these shoes red and beautiful, but the bride from this wedding is also wearing a gorgeous red wedding dress! This look is totally gorgeous! Would you dare to wear a red dress for your wedding?

         http://www.love4wed.com/elegant-wedding-with-a-stunning-red-vera-wang-wedding-dress/
 

Raspberries are so delicious! My favorite! I especially love raspberries on top of a chocolate cake!

       

If I were to choose any color of dress, it would most certainly be a red one! This stunning dress has caught my eye for awhile now, I wish I had cause to wear a dress like this! 

   

  

 How about a red leather jacket?! This is from my engagement shoot a couple years ago. <3

  

Fall is my favorite season for so many reasons!

Our wedding was themed around red and gold! This was our wedding cake!

Hope you enjoyed the color red as much as I did! Looking forward to next week with the featured color: Orange!

   Lately I've been facing some challenges concerning being a SAHM. Although I know my purpose, taking care of the house and my baby girl, I'm having a slight identity crisis. Oddly enough, I feel like something's missing in my life. I'm constantly depressed and unmotivated for reasons I do not know why. I'm always bored and find reasons not to clean the house when it so obviously needs doing. I'm discontent.

   Should I be feeling this way? I mean, is it just selfish? Am I complaining too much about lack of space/socialization/free time etc? Or am I just plain lazy?

   For weeks now my prayers have consisted of pleading with God to show me who I am, show me my purpose. My biggest worry is that I'm bringing a negative attitude into the home. I don't want to be constantly nagging and complaining about things I'm unhappy about, that's just plain wrong. I'm confused. Why LORD are you not answering my prayers? I am so blessed with a wonderful marriage and a wonderful baby girl, but why can't I be content? I know there must be something there that'll keep me happy and contented, but why haven't I found even a hint of it?

   I was speaking to my mother this past week about all this and she says it's a completely normal stage of life. I knew that it was going to be a transition going from single to married and then having a kid, but I never knew how it was gonna feel.

   For the time being, I'll just keep praying about it, and hopefully I'll find contentment where I'm at. I'm sure it's staring me right in the face, I just need to buck up, get past my laziness, and find it.

   Any advice would certainly be welcomed from those seasoned, married women in my life.

   

   My name is Tanaya and welcome to my blog! I am a wife and stay at home mom of a beautiful baby girl.

   I'm sitting here trying to think of something impressive to say about myself, but really, right now, there's not much to say.

   I'm generally at home taking care of my daughter with nothing better to do than watch tv, clean (when I finally motivate myself to do so), cook, and whatever other duties a SAHM (stay at home mom) is required to do. This blog is hopefully the start of something new and exciting. A place where I can rant about all the hobbies I'd like to do, the hobbies I eventually start after much stalling, my life, my marriage, and my family. Basically all the things that I love and make me happy. :)